I just discovered Kellie Pickler. I love her voice, and as I was listening to her album on the way home from work, this song came on...I had to listen to it 3 times to make sure I got every word, and I almost started bawling on the subway...it perfectly sums up what is going through my mind right now, especially the bridge.
Sometimes the night seems so lonely
When your lying there all alone
And tomorrow seems so far away
I don't wanna live another day this way.
Scared to love someone else
Can't bear the hurt again
But my body needs to feel a touch
Someone to come and wake me up.
I just want somebody to love me.
I just need somebody to hold me.
Somebody to love me...
Don't wanna let life pass me by
Never knowning what its like
To be as real as real can be
To share my life and know my dreams.
I just want somebody to love me.
I just need somebody to hold me.
Somebody to love me...
Cause I'm hurt and I'm scared and I'm lonely
All I want is somebody to want me
Cause I've got so much to give.
I just want somebody to love me.
I just need somebody to hold me.
Somebody to love me...
.jmm.
3.17.2009
3.08.2009
boredum.
001. Real name → Jennifer Marie Moore
002. Nickname(s) → Jen, Jenny, Jenny Jen Jen Jen, Jenny from the Rock, J.Mo.
003. Zodiac sign → Sagittarius
004. Male or female → Female
005. Elementary School → Cheyenne Mountain and then Pinon Valley
006. Middle School → Cheyenne Mountain J.H.S
007. High School → Cheyenne Mountain H.S.
008. Hair color → Light brown
009. Long or short → Shoulder length
010. Loud or Quiet → Depends who I'm with, but mostly quietish
011. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
012. Phone or Camera → Phone
013. Health freak → I like to try to eat healthy...sometimes haha
014. Drink or Smoke? → Only drink.
015. Do you have a crush on someone? → My boyfriend.
016. Eat or Drink → Depends on what it is.
017. Piercings → 2 on right ear, 3 on left.
018. Tattoos → Not yet. But I want one on my foot.
HAVE YOU EVER?
019. Been in an airplane → Many.
020. Been in a relationship → Yes.
021. Been in a car accident → Yes, just minor ones.
022. Been in a fist fight → No.
FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → Ears in 5th grade.
024. First best friend → Sarah Faria
025. First award → Art awards in elementary school. Or perfect attendance at school and dance.
026. First crush → Alex Balm.
027. First big vacation → Probably stopping in VA when moving to the states.
LASTS:
029. Last person you talked to → Rodrigo
030. Last person you texted → James
031. Watched a movie with → Chelsea
032. Last food you ate → Pringles
033. Last movie you watched → He's Just Not That Into You.
034. Last song you listened to → Something that was in a commercial just a minute ago.
035. Last thing you bought → Pringles, string cheese, a candle.
036. Last person you hugged → James.
FAVES:
037. Food → Pasta, cheese, chocolate, bread. Basically carbs.
038. Drink → Water or orange tea.
039. Clothing → Jeans or sundresses.
040. Flower → Daisies
041. Animal → Dogs, baby pigs, pandas, dolphins.
042. Colors → Light green and Tiffany blue.
043. Movies → Dirty Dancing, the Band Wagon, Sex and the City
044. Subjects → ummm...I don't like school. Hahaha...
IN 2008..... I
045. [x] kissed someone
046. [x] celebrated Halloween
047. [x] had your heart broken
048. [ ] went over the minutes on your cell phone
049. [x] questioned someone's sexual orientation
050. [ ] came out of the closet
051. [ ] gotten pregnant/got someone pregnant
052. [ ] had an abortion
053. [ ] done something you've regretted
054. [x] broke a promise
055. [x] hid a secret
056. [x] pretended to be happy
057. [x] met someone who changed your life
058. [x] pretended to be sick
059. [ ] left the country
060. [x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
061. [x] cried over the silliest thing
062. [x] ran a mile
063. [x] went to the beach
064. [x] got into an argument with your friends
065. [x] hated someone
066. [ ] stayed single the whole year
CURRENTLY:
067. Eating → A Rice Krispie Treat :)
068. Drinking → Sprite that's gone completely flat. Ick.
069. I'm about to → Do a project for school, as soon as the software downloads.
070. Listening to → The sounds of SNL
071. Plans for today → Doing a project and then sleeping.
072. Waiting for → The file to download.
YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want kids? → Yes.
074. Want to get married? → Yes.
075. Careers in mind → Actor, Dancer, Graphic Designer, who knows what else.
WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY?
076. Lips or eyes → Eyes
077. Shorter or taller? → TALLER.
078. Romantic or spontaneous → Romantically spontaneous.
079. Nice stomach or nice arms → Arms.
080. Sensitive or loud → A good balance between the two.
081. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship. Definitely.
082. Trouble-maker or hesitant → I don't like hesitant so I guess trouble-maker...?
HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost glasses/contacts → Umm...actually no.
084. Ran away from home → No.
085. Hold a gun/knife for self defense → No.
086. Killed somebody → No.
087. Broken someone's heart → Yes.
088. Been arrested → Nope.
089. Cried when someone died → Yes.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself → Yes.
091. Miracles → Yep.
092. Love at first sight → Now, wholeheartedly.
093. Heaven → Yes.
094. Santa Claus → Mmmmhmmmm.
095. Sex on the first date → Hell no.
096. Kiss on the first date → It depends.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Yes...
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? → I think if everything in the next couple of months goes in the right direction, I will be extremely happy. Right now I can't really complain though.
099. Do you believe in God? → Not necessarily one god, but definitely some sort of higher power.
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people → No.
1. Who was your FIRST prom date? Well a guy backed out 2 days before, so I went with a guy named Steve that my parent's friends set me up with. He had a girlfriend. Awkward.
2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love? No.
3. What was your FIRST alcoholic drink? Malibu.
4. What was your FIRST job? Dad's office.
5.What was your FIRST car? 1997 Infiniti i30
6. Who was the FIRST person to text you today? Um...I think Elyse.
7. Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning? James.
8. Who was your FIRST grade teacher? Mrs. Norman.
9. Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane? Probably from Germany to VA
10. Who was your FIRST best friend & do you still talk? Sarah, no.
11. Where was your FIRST sleep over? Probably Sarah or Kate.
12. Who was the FIRST person you talked to today? In person, the lady at the bank.
13. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time? Aunt Pam & Uncle Rich.
14. What was the FIRST thing you did this morning? Set my alarm for a half hour later.
15. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to? Donna Summer. My first experience with the gays :)
16. FIRST tattoo? Don't have one yet.
17. First piercing? Ears, 5th grade.
18. First foreign country you've been to? I was born in Germany.
19. FIRST movie you remember seeing? The Lion King.
20. When was your FIRST detention? Never had detention. I was a good kid.
21. What was the first state you lived in? Colorado.
22. Who was your FIRST roommate? Lizzy.
23. If you had one wish. What would it be? To live happily ever after with my Prince Charming.
24. What is something you would learn if you had the chance? Guitar, and I am starting.
25. Who was your first kiss? This will be a surprise to mom...Cameron. :)
.jmm.
002. Nickname(s) → Jen, Jenny, Jenny Jen Jen Jen, Jenny from the Rock, J.Mo.
003. Zodiac sign → Sagittarius
004. Male or female → Female
005. Elementary School → Cheyenne Mountain and then Pinon Valley
006. Middle School → Cheyenne Mountain J.H.S
007. High School → Cheyenne Mountain H.S.
008. Hair color → Light brown
009. Long or short → Shoulder length
010. Loud or Quiet → Depends who I'm with, but mostly quietish
011. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
012. Phone or Camera → Phone
013. Health freak → I like to try to eat healthy...sometimes haha
014. Drink or Smoke? → Only drink.
015. Do you have a crush on someone? → My boyfriend.
016. Eat or Drink → Depends on what it is.
017. Piercings → 2 on right ear, 3 on left.
018. Tattoos → Not yet. But I want one on my foot.
HAVE YOU EVER?
019. Been in an airplane → Many.
020. Been in a relationship → Yes.
021. Been in a car accident → Yes, just minor ones.
022. Been in a fist fight → No.
FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → Ears in 5th grade.
024. First best friend → Sarah Faria
025. First award → Art awards in elementary school. Or perfect attendance at school and dance.
026. First crush → Alex Balm.
027. First big vacation → Probably stopping in VA when moving to the states.
LASTS:
029. Last person you talked to → Rodrigo
030. Last person you texted → James
031. Watched a movie with → Chelsea
032. Last food you ate → Pringles
033. Last movie you watched → He's Just Not That Into You.
034. Last song you listened to → Something that was in a commercial just a minute ago.
035. Last thing you bought → Pringles, string cheese, a candle.
036. Last person you hugged → James.
FAVES:
037. Food → Pasta, cheese, chocolate, bread. Basically carbs.
038. Drink → Water or orange tea.
039. Clothing → Jeans or sundresses.
040. Flower → Daisies
041. Animal → Dogs, baby pigs, pandas, dolphins.
042. Colors → Light green and Tiffany blue.
043. Movies → Dirty Dancing, the Band Wagon, Sex and the City
044. Subjects → ummm...I don't like school. Hahaha...
IN 2008..... I
045. [x] kissed someone
046. [x] celebrated Halloween
047. [x] had your heart broken
048. [ ] went over the minutes on your cell phone
049. [x] questioned someone's sexual orientation
050. [ ] came out of the closet
051. [ ] gotten pregnant/got someone pregnant
052. [ ] had an abortion
053. [ ] done something you've regretted
054. [x] broke a promise
055. [x] hid a secret
056. [x] pretended to be happy
057. [x] met someone who changed your life
058. [x] pretended to be sick
059. [ ] left the country
060. [x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
061. [x] cried over the silliest thing
062. [x] ran a mile
063. [x] went to the beach
064. [x] got into an argument with your friends
065. [x] hated someone
066. [ ] stayed single the whole year
CURRENTLY:
067. Eating → A Rice Krispie Treat :)
068. Drinking → Sprite that's gone completely flat. Ick.
069. I'm about to → Do a project for school, as soon as the software downloads.
070. Listening to → The sounds of SNL
071. Plans for today → Doing a project and then sleeping.
072. Waiting for → The file to download.
YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want kids? → Yes.
074. Want to get married? → Yes.
075. Careers in mind → Actor, Dancer, Graphic Designer, who knows what else.
WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY?
076. Lips or eyes → Eyes
077. Shorter or taller? → TALLER.
078. Romantic or spontaneous → Romantically spontaneous.
079. Nice stomach or nice arms → Arms.
080. Sensitive or loud → A good balance between the two.
081. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship. Definitely.
082. Trouble-maker or hesitant → I don't like hesitant so I guess trouble-maker...?
HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost glasses/contacts → Umm...actually no.
084. Ran away from home → No.
085. Hold a gun/knife for self defense → No.
086. Killed somebody → No.
087. Broken someone's heart → Yes.
088. Been arrested → Nope.
089. Cried when someone died → Yes.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself → Yes.
091. Miracles → Yep.
092. Love at first sight → Now, wholeheartedly.
093. Heaven → Yes.
094. Santa Claus → Mmmmhmmmm.
095. Sex on the first date → Hell no.
096. Kiss on the first date → It depends.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Yes...
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? → I think if everything in the next couple of months goes in the right direction, I will be extremely happy. Right now I can't really complain though.
099. Do you believe in God? → Not necessarily one god, but definitely some sort of higher power.
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people → No.
1. Who was your FIRST prom date? Well a guy backed out 2 days before, so I went with a guy named Steve that my parent's friends set me up with. He had a girlfriend. Awkward.
2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love? No.
3. What was your FIRST alcoholic drink? Malibu.
4. What was your FIRST job? Dad's office.
5.What was your FIRST car? 1997 Infiniti i30
6. Who was the FIRST person to text you today? Um...I think Elyse.
7. Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning? James.
8. Who was your FIRST grade teacher? Mrs. Norman.
9. Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane? Probably from Germany to VA
10. Who was your FIRST best friend & do you still talk? Sarah, no.
11. Where was your FIRST sleep over? Probably Sarah or Kate.
12. Who was the FIRST person you talked to today? In person, the lady at the bank.
13. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time? Aunt Pam & Uncle Rich.
14. What was the FIRST thing you did this morning? Set my alarm for a half hour later.
15. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to? Donna Summer. My first experience with the gays :)
16. FIRST tattoo? Don't have one yet.
17. First piercing? Ears, 5th grade.
18. First foreign country you've been to? I was born in Germany.
19. FIRST movie you remember seeing? The Lion King.
20. When was your FIRST detention? Never had detention. I was a good kid.
21. What was the first state you lived in? Colorado.
22. Who was your FIRST roommate? Lizzy.
23. If you had one wish. What would it be? To live happily ever after with my Prince Charming.
24. What is something you would learn if you had the chance? Guitar, and I am starting.
25. Who was your first kiss? This will be a surprise to mom...Cameron. :)
.jmm.
3.07.2009
My epiphany.
Alright, so this blog is for those of you who are close to me, instead of repeating the story a bunch of times to each of you, I'll just post it here.
So my boyfriend (James) is a grad student at Columbia, and he will be graduating in May. We have been dating just over a month now and it was an incredible month, really. We were swept up in a romantic whirlwind, just like a fairy tale, love at first sight. Amazing, really. Things did go quite quickly, because we spent a lot of time together and realized we were in love almost immediately. This was great when we were in our bubble, but when you're a grad student, as he is, you need to focus on your work or you'll have to pull several all-nighters in one week. Not good.
So long story a bit shorter, the past week has been him explaining to me how he needs to focus on getting a job and finishing school right now, because if he doesn't give school his all, there may be no job, and he may not stay in NYC. So let's all hope he gets an amazing job that lets him stay here. Please...so we agreed that the best thing to do would be to slow it down. More than just seeing each other merely once a week, we finally (after many tears, frustration and confusion) decided that we will go back to that "first dating mentality", trying to go back to just dating before things got super serious. How do you do this when you're already in love? I don't know. But that's what we are doing...trying, anyway. The only other options we could think of were 1) being "just friends" for a while (which I could NOT do, could anyone be friends with someone they're already in love with?) or 2) break up (which would be horribly unfair and heartbreaking and ugh...I don't even want to think about it)...
Anyway. We are trying this. I'm willing to stick with him until he's ready to get serious again, and hopefully we can stick together. So finally, getting to my "epiphany"...
I guess you could sort of call it "our song"..."Love Story" by Taylor Swift (who I found quite annoying at first, but her songwriting is really very good) was stuck in my head for about 2 weeks straight when we first started dating. I had him listen to the song on our second date, and since then, he's my Romeo and I'm his Juliet. :) So anyway, I love the song and we have a fairytale romance, so it works. It is fitting.
And then when I was at work tonight, I started singing the song in my head and realized that it perfectly fits this situation. Perfectly. "This love is difficult, but it's real. Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess, it's a love story, baby just say yes..." I've been trying to keep a positive outlook on everything and truly believe that whatever is meant to be will happen. So now that I know this song will help me through it, I'll have a bit more incentive to be patient and understanding.
I also should mention I bought a guitar and will spend the next couple months learning how to play. And the first song I am learning is this one...I already have the sheet music :)
And for your enjoyment, the music video (including lyrics on-screen)...enjoy!
.jmm.
So my boyfriend (James) is a grad student at Columbia, and he will be graduating in May. We have been dating just over a month now and it was an incredible month, really. We were swept up in a romantic whirlwind, just like a fairy tale, love at first sight. Amazing, really. Things did go quite quickly, because we spent a lot of time together and realized we were in love almost immediately. This was great when we were in our bubble, but when you're a grad student, as he is, you need to focus on your work or you'll have to pull several all-nighters in one week. Not good.
So long story a bit shorter, the past week has been him explaining to me how he needs to focus on getting a job and finishing school right now, because if he doesn't give school his all, there may be no job, and he may not stay in NYC. So let's all hope he gets an amazing job that lets him stay here. Please...so we agreed that the best thing to do would be to slow it down. More than just seeing each other merely once a week, we finally (after many tears, frustration and confusion) decided that we will go back to that "first dating mentality", trying to go back to just dating before things got super serious. How do you do this when you're already in love? I don't know. But that's what we are doing...trying, anyway. The only other options we could think of were 1) being "just friends" for a while (which I could NOT do, could anyone be friends with someone they're already in love with?) or 2) break up (which would be horribly unfair and heartbreaking and ugh...I don't even want to think about it)...
Anyway. We are trying this. I'm willing to stick with him until he's ready to get serious again, and hopefully we can stick together. So finally, getting to my "epiphany"...
I guess you could sort of call it "our song"..."Love Story" by Taylor Swift (who I found quite annoying at first, but her songwriting is really very good) was stuck in my head for about 2 weeks straight when we first started dating. I had him listen to the song on our second date, and since then, he's my Romeo and I'm his Juliet. :) So anyway, I love the song and we have a fairytale romance, so it works. It is fitting.
And then when I was at work tonight, I started singing the song in my head and realized that it perfectly fits this situation. Perfectly. "This love is difficult, but it's real. Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess, it's a love story, baby just say yes..." I've been trying to keep a positive outlook on everything and truly believe that whatever is meant to be will happen. So now that I know this song will help me through it, I'll have a bit more incentive to be patient and understanding.
I also should mention I bought a guitar and will spend the next couple months learning how to play. And the first song I am learning is this one...I already have the sheet music :)
And for your enjoyment, the music video (including lyrics on-screen)...enjoy!
.jmm.
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